Starting a new chapter

Well, those of you who know me really well, know what has me so worried these days. It's a tough road and I want to be angry and sour. I want to skip it. Fast forward my life until it gets better...like in "Click" the movie with Adam Sandler...but that is just not possible. So I need some prayer. My life has been turned upside down and I feel so robbed. I find myself saying if I wasn't so naive or if I had only known earlier before it got to this point...you know? I just don't understand it. I don't know what I have done to make my life this way. It's like if I would have known I would change it all. I don't like this part of my life. Haven't I dealt with enough? My husband has a devastating blow to the head last summer, my kids have had countless misfortunes and accidents, we have been through financial trouble after financial trouble, it just never ends.

Satan, haven't you learned that I won't give in to you? Notice I said that I wanted to be angry and sour and that I wanted to be upset. But then notice this:

YOU WILL NOT WIN.
WITH GOD'S HELP,
I WILL FOLLOW HIM
NO MATTER WHAT!

So as this new chapter of my life comes, I covet your prayers and I pray for God's guidance and wisdom. It's going to be a long, hard, painful trip, but God will carry me through.