Do you want the good news or the bad news first?

Well, we'll start with bad. Yesterday, the preliminary reports of Dad's biopsy indicate that he has pancreatic cancer. Cancer is never what you hope for, but pancreatic cancer is definitely not the cancer we would want if he had to have one....I made the MISTAKE of looking it up on webmd tonight. I had said I wouldn't but I did. Oh God help!

But God is bigger. And He's able. And He is merciful and He has a plan. Yesterday was extremely emotional, as I'm sure you can imagine.

But finally....

...some positive news....

Dad's heart cath today came back with good results. It seems the doctor believes that if the oncologist decides upon chemo for Dad, the heart will be strong enough. PTL for a small victory today.

It's funny how one day I can barely stop crying, one day I'm mad as all get out, one day I'm optimistic and trusting....

God, forgive me when I don't rely completely on You. You have our best interest in mind. If in some way, I can glorify You today through this, show me, God. I know You are good and Your love endures forever. My strength rises as I wait upon You, Lord. Give me and my family the strength and the courage to face it again in the morning. God I pray that You choose to heal my dad. Take away the pain. Take away the cancer. Take away all blood clots. God, You will be praised in all things. I trust in You because You said I can...because You said Your burden is light...because You said that You will never leave or forsake me or my dad...because You show me Your love every day...because You have blessed me beyond what I can imagine and Your Word promises that You will bless me even more...because You have never failed me....because You have delivered me from death....because You bought me with Your blood...because You show me Your power with every sunrise...because You brought Lazarus back to life....because You are too awesome for words. Jesus, I lift up Your name, and I ask that in Your name You take all of this away from my dad. Heal him with the touch of Your mighty hand. We will give You all the glory. Amen.