Isaiah 54:10

"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord, who has compassion on you.

"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." Show me who I am, Lord. Reveal Your peace in my life. Amen...

Isaiah 26:3

"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you."

"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." Show me who I am, God. Amen.

John 14:27

I have no idea where to begin, but I know that I have to get this out...

I can't stand the unknown. It will drive you insane. And I've given the advice a million times to others..."What can it do to worry about it?"..."God is in control"....but when you're in the middle of it and you don't know which end is up, it's really difficult to find the peace we're promised. My favorite verse is John 14:27. It has been for about 10 years...but it's also a hard one to accept...when you are engulfed in turmoil.

The lyrics that keep coming to my head are whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say "It is well. It is well with my soul." I realize that the lyrics don't say whatever my lot, Thou makes it easy to say "It is well with my soul." Maybe that should be my focus today.

Maybe that's the key...at least for this one-day-at-a-time-day like today.

God, continue to give me the gentle, quiet spirit. Continue to pour out Your strength. Mine is insufficient. Your grace is supposed to be enough....help me to feel like it is and believe that it is. Whatever comes my way, help me to be able to stand firm and say that because of YOU, it IS well with my soul...Help me to feel Your peace. I want to find my comfort in You.

What goes up...must come...

Well, it's been a rough two days. I'm not sure what it was that changed it all, but it has been rough, nonetheless.

It's probably going to be one of those things where you have 1 giant step forward and 2 steps back. Who knows? I want to depend on God more right now. I want to be renewed in Him.

God, see me through this. That's my prayer today. Help me to have that gentle, quiet spirit and see me through it. Amen.

Not so scary today.

Praise God, today was a much better day today. God just knows what we need and when we need it....(Can I get an Amen???)

Starting a new chapter

Well, those of you who know me really well, know what has me so worried these days. It's a tough road and I want to be angry and sour. I want to skip it. Fast forward my life until it gets better...like in "Click" the movie with Adam Sandler...but that is just not possible. So I need some prayer. My life has been turned upside down and I feel so robbed. I find myself saying if I wasn't so naive or if I had only known earlier before it got to this point...you know? I just don't understand it. I don't know what I have done to make my life this way. It's like if I would have known I would change it all. I don't like this part of my life. Haven't I dealt with enough? My husband has a devastating blow to the head last summer, my kids have had countless misfortunes and accidents, we have been through financial trouble after financial trouble, it just never ends.

Satan, haven't you learned that I won't give in to you? Notice I said that I wanted to be angry and sour and that I wanted to be upset. But then notice this:

YOU WILL NOT WIN.
WITH GOD'S HELP,
I WILL FOLLOW HIM
NO MATTER WHAT!

So as this new chapter of my life comes, I covet your prayers and I pray for God's guidance and wisdom. It's going to be a long, hard, painful trip, but God will carry me through.